Shadow of Life

“As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t. Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself. – Haruki Murakami” We all have been given this luxury right now to utilise the time at hand as per our needs, but are we able to do it? It seems so easy when we think about it but it isn’t; because if it would have been, we would not have been sitting in our living room wondering about either what to do next or how to get things done without being lazy. This lockdown has solved as well as created many problems for us. Where once we used to crave about the much-needed free time; now, we don’t know what to make of it. On top it, the added pressure of doing something productive is wreaking havoc in our mind. We all want to do something, learn something and some just want to chill (because that is the ultimate goal of their life). I wish I had that luxury too. Yes, I always end up using this statement because after every few ...

What would you like to tell me today? Happy, Sad or Clueless! It's not difficult to decide the course of action But you need to know the cause right! Burdened with all these emotions It takes a toll on you Yet you stand tall Smiling all the way What is it that you want to hide That you don't feel comfortable sharing Is it me again? Giving you trouble! Or that thought hasn't left your mind Reveal what is hidden inside Take charge of what is yours And blossom in this beautiful light

Who am I to you? Nobody yet someone who cares It isn't easy to keep up With your energy Yet I choose to stay active Even when it is tiring I walk up to you for a smile And all I get is A pinky finger touch from far It is enough As long as you are content I can see that joy behind this poker face I will come again tomorrow For you For us For this wonderful feeling that is growing beneath the surface If you feel like Come and say Hi!

More than for myself I write for you To keep you close To erase the distance When things go dirty I can bind you with this invisible veil You tend to play around Don't follow me Let me plan a surprise tonight As I have learnt to live And die every moment With the pain You carry all-day

When there are a million things going on in your mind and you can't even hold to one! What would you call it? When the day just disappear into thin air and you spent your nights sleeping so even they don't exist. What does even existence mean? Shallow living and deep talks! Or is it just another way to fool the world or fool yourself? You are searching for solutions and answers everywhere but it isn't easy with what is going on. You want to take charge of your life but not with the set terms and conditions. But who will let you decide it? Nobody. And if you can, then trust me you are one of those lucky people who have this much Independence and freedom not necessarily in every field but just where it is needed the most. I never want you to take it for granted because those who have it never value. I knew precisely what I was getting and I was thankful for it and still, I am. Also, at the same time, I do know what I lack and how it is affecting me. One wrong decision an...

What will you do when you are at the edge? One single step and a whole new world around sweeping everything that once made you happy. Oh, sorry! Happiness is just an illusion just like sadness. Even though I cannot correlate them, but they are meant to remain side by side. I no longer know what it feels to be whole. I’m constantly on the verge of smiling and breaking down at the same time. Do you feel me? No? Good, because you are still a few steps away from the life happening events that might make you feel either of the two. It’s just so disheartening to lose the most important people in your life, even when they are around. You feel it every single day, but your hands are tied so you cannot do anything even if you desire to. Nothing is fair in this life, but everything is fair when it is life. It becomes so difficult to fight with this pain, but you must stay strong for yourself and for them. Isn’t it obvious that you just wait for the night to go on endlessly so that you d...

My Dear Reader, Today I want to share something. I don’t know how to put it across, but it is bubbling up inside and right now I want to pour my heart out to you. Maybe you will understand or it will only fly above your head; either way, we both have nothing to lose. You might be wondering what it is, perhaps it’s all in my head because you don’t even know me, but then again how does it even matter. At times, we don’t need connections to share something good, being positive is a good reason to stay connected. Isn’t it? Let just say you have someone around and you are moved by their emotions and how they connect with people. There are moments where you can relate to yourself, but then there are those where you lack. Yes, I’m going to talk about those ‘where we lack’, ‘which we don’t have’ and ‘which makes us feel empty’. No wonder it sounds so depressing to not have something we desire. I wish I could have helped you with that. But then there are days where I totally feel ...