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Existence


Many a time in our life we happen to face some situations where we start questioning about our existence. We are working round the clock but at someone else’s discretion as if what we want from our life doesn’t matter. It does matter to us, but not to them. Howsoever they want us to believe it is good for us but we all know we are not enjoying it. Also, I agree not everything is supposed to be for our enjoyment but when you do something which feels like a task or a burden, in the long run, you tend to make plans to run away from it. It doesn’t happen overnight. It starts building up as and when we feel we are getting near the breaking point. We start seeing the patterns which earlier wasn’t visible to our line of vision. Then we become anxious.
Now when you know the patterns and want to break the chain, it won’t leave you no matter how much you want to be left alone. It’s a cycle. You know it. You sense it. You feel it. You struggle. You struggle really bad. It gets to the point where even when you take everything out you still feel heavy. It is a lie when we say we don’t know what to do; we do know and we try it too but we fail because it has stopped responding to our needs. Now, you cannot reveal this secret to just anyone as you won’t be considered sane. Everyone will start feeling there is some problem with you. Of course, there is, but not in the way they are thinking and that’s where the real problem arises. What would be the next course of action? Now that’s where you go astray because you have tried everything that you knew. And then they come to you saying you have imposed this thing upon yourself.
All this while, the thought of liberating yourself is keeping you awake. You want to be free. There is nothing else except this. Why you may ask? Because there is nothing precious than a piece of mind when you are freaking out. Also, it comes in waves so you may want to hold on to that calm state before it hits again.
Despite the odds, you need to hold on to yourself and believe in yourself because if you have managed to reach here, you have more capability than you know so don’t lose hope. Things might not be the way you want them to be but sometimes you have to make do with what you have. In Iron Man 3 there is one scene where Tony Stark gets to know his suit isn’t charging, he gets a panic attack as he was supposed to head towards his next destination and without his suit, there was no chance he could pull off his stunt. But then there is a kid on the phone line and he tells him, “You are a mechanic. Right! So, build something.” And it hits him hard and then, he is possessed, going to a supermarket and buying hundreds of things to make something that will get his work done for the time being. So, you got to make the best out of every opportunity you have. It might seem minuscule but you never know that it might be the stepping stone in the long run.

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  1. AvinasHJune 03, 2020 7:34 pm

    Truly inspiring post!

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  2. Anujashree RoyJune 11, 2020 1:11 pm

    I connect with what you have written. Sometimes people just decide what's good for us, not even bothering to ask is what we truly want.

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    1. Richa SainiJune 14, 2020 1:06 am

      I'm glad you did! I hope you keep moving forward and not let those things get to you.

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