Shadow of Life

When there are a million things going on in your mind and you can't even hold to one! What would you call it? When the day just disappear into thin air and you spent your nights sleeping so even they don't exist. What does even existence mean? Shallow living and deep talks! Or is it just another way to fool the world or fool yourself? You are searching for solutions and answers everywhere but it isn't easy with what is going on. You want to take charge of your life but not with the set terms and conditions. But who will let you decide it? Nobody. And if you can, then trust me you are one of those lucky people who have this much Independence and freedom not necessarily in every field but just where it is needed the most. I never want you to take it for granted because those who have it never value. I knew precisely what I was getting and I was thankful for it and still, I am. Also, at the same time, I do know what I lack and how it is affecting me. One wrong decision an...

What will you do when you are at the edge? One single step and a whole new world around sweeping everything that once made you happy. Oh, sorry! Happiness is just an illusion just like sadness. Even though I cannot correlate them, but they are meant to remain side by side. I no longer know what it feels to be whole. I’m constantly on the verge of smiling and breaking down at the same time. Do you feel me? No? Good, because you are still a few steps away from the life happening events that might make you feel either of the two. It’s just so disheartening to lose the most important people in your life, even when they are around. You feel it every single day, but your hands are tied so you cannot do anything even if you desire to. Nothing is fair in this life, but everything is fair when it is life. It becomes so difficult to fight with this pain, but you must stay strong for yourself and for them. Isn’t it obvious that you just wait for the night to go on endlessly so that you d...

My Dear Reader, Today I want to share something. I don’t know how to put it across, but it is bubbling up inside and right now I want to pour my heart out to you. Maybe you will understand or it will only fly above your head; either way, we both have nothing to lose. You might be wondering what it is, perhaps it’s all in my head because you don’t even know me, but then again how does it even matter. At times, we don’t need connections to share something good, being positive is a good reason to stay connected. Isn’t it? Let just say you have someone around and you are moved by their emotions and how they connect with people. There are moments where you can relate to yourself, but then there are those where you lack. Yes, I’m going to talk about those ‘where we lack’, ‘which we don’t have’ and ‘which makes us feel empty’. No wonder it sounds so depressing to not have something we desire. I wish I could have helped you with that. But then there are days where I totally feel ...

I wish it would have been easy To pass my days To laugh carefree When I know Your presence Could have changed everything I don't complain Neither do I regret Yet, here I am On my knees In front of you To kiss your palm Which I always wanted to do Do not look into my eyes You might see A different world Not for you my love Perhaps it speaks your absence A smile I hold Every time I have to lie I cannot fool you I can only smile For truth to be known You never fail To pick a few signs And then I confess How much I love How much I miss Not by my words But how I react

Some choices we make Not thinking about what is at stake It happened yesterday And I never wanted it to stay It takes a while, He said Who knew I can still be so mad Those days are gone behind summer afternoon Yet life is beautiful when I look at the moon How terrible it feels; closing your favorite door Losing your mind and wanting it more Glad this moment came At least my feelings were not in vain I can be anything I want to be Yet I chose to not to be me.

Isn’t it crazy listening to one song over and over again!!! Looks like I always write when I’m listening songs (perks of being an admirer of squeaky little bird). So what I’m going to share today is as trivial as it was last time. Sorry for the disappointment though; it is sort of a pre warning if you are not interested!!! Let suppose we entirely want to be detached from all the dramatic events that life causes just because it will be more comfortable to manage affairs. Close your eye for a while (I recognize you are exiting to think another crazy trick). Good if you like it that way, then don’t do that, but clarify your ideas. What you demand and what you actually need are two different things. AND I’M TELLING YOU IN BIG BOLD LETTERS DO NOT CONFUSE BETWEEN THESE TWO!!! As I have done the same and now regretting over it. Not necessarily, it might affect you; hopefully unlike me, you will get over it. Have you ever noticed our mind tries to play games with us, very indecisive whe...

There are days that make you lively just by listening to a song or while saying something to yourself. That one moment surrounds your whole life. It is blissful to experience those days or moments. Because you feel complete without being with someone or missing them. It is true company matters a lot to your healthy, happy life, but being happy in your own company is the best medicine to the problems of your life or your sorrows. I would say demand such kind of feelings for yourself because then you will be the lifeline of your space without much chaos. It’s been long that I have been around here because I was busy creating many such bits. Today I thought to pen down for you as well as for myself. I have found out that you find many things that bring you down and many that appeals you to be detached from the world. Well, there lies the opportunities that lead you to places you never visited and never knew existed. So before thinking or deciding that it’s the end of the day ...